There’s a war going on
With people getting killed
While others get billed
For things that destroy
Not create
There are
Women getting raped
Their mouths being taped
Their bodies marked
While they fall apart
Yet my biggest worry
That morning was what to wear
And to leave in a hurry
So the bus would still be there
But who knew that in just a few hours
My world would fall apart
I wouldn’t sleep for days
Survive on the caffeine
Cause she was gone
And I was left to pick up the pieces
The next day I went to school
Pretended like I was cool
Cause I couldn’t stand what I saw in my mother’s eyes
It was something that was never there before
That day in English I couldn’t breathe
Almost blacked out
Cause my teacher started talking about the war
That took her away
But I’ve also never been more enraged
Cause she put her with the numbers
Like this is logos, and this is pathos
It took everything in me to not just say,
those are people you talking about
Everyone who knew kept asking if I was okay
But what was I supposed to say?
That I’m falling apart inside
Every minute of every day
Hell, you could ask any teenager in this world
And their response would be the same as mine
They’ll all say fine
While inside they’re falling apart
Not sleeping at nights
fighting demons inside their own minds
And being told that you’re too young
To know you’re gay, bi, trans, queer, or just part of LGBTQ
But why don’t you tell the straights the same thing too
Like they can date the opposite
But I can’t love who I want
How the fuck is that right
So the next time you tell me I’m too young
To know who I am
You might want to think about the fact
That I’ve been here for
Me too
And black lives matter
And being locked in my own house for months on end
And realizing no one’s safe, even the politicians who sit at capitol hill
And the world I call my home is burning itself up
And a war that’s happening right now as I talk
The war that killed her….
The war that killed my best friend
So here’s the deal
Don’t ask if I’m okay
Cause my response will be the same
Every single time
And don’t even try to get me to open up
Cause I can tell you what’s gonna happen:
Your gonna gain my trust,
And I’ll love you with everything I have
But then you’re gonna leave and
I’m gonna be alone to clean up the mess you created
So don’t come in my life
Cause I am sick of everyone coming and going
Like it’s a pit stop you don’t think about twice
